Yet to learn the art of making sense

My interpretation of the song

2007-10-11T00:10:00.000-07:00

Hide every thing, keep every secret inside, do not open up your self.

People have to and like to portray only the good side and want you to do the same
Don't leave the keys for every one to see what's inside, most won't believe it.
The ones who care will feel bad, the others will laugh
If you cannot stop doing that, do not bother others with it.

Wake up stupid people, ones who think you are wise and others are not
--Stop creating fables--

I don't think you trust in my self righteous suicide.
But you have to kill trying to find some meaning. That person inside of you
Don't try to break some code or secret of life or stuff like that. They don't want it

Don't try to change everyone, they will do what is making them happy and ignore the rest

It's the way to live today, today Angels deserve to die
The world does not want them
Don't make it complex and think you are simplifying it

It's something that can make you cry when angels deserve to die.
- Chop Suey

This blog

2007-06-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

This blog seems to look like a sum, or a mathematical problem being solved slowly through the use of formulas
Seems like at times there is the trial and error method too.
At times I can lose direction though
It's amazing when sometimes I read an article I myself wrote a while back
But don't have any clue what it means anymore..

.. Right now I feel it's a brain slowly getting mature ..

1 second thoughts in a 505

2007-06-06T21:12:00.000-07:00

Is man a creature really ignorant, innocent, naive and one of the most weakest?
So busy with his own self, occupied with himself and getting so far from the biological cycle, leading towards his own destruction?
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Everyday I travel a thousand people I see, come in and out of the trains , walking on the streets , seem so much in a hurry to go somewhere.
It just makes me feel the presence of something else in this world amongst the rush.
It seems to me as if man is moving towards some direction, unconsciously, so fast, he doesn't realize it.
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A person involves himself in activities that are of his interest and help him survive, this keeps his mind occupied, he is happy, nothing else is needed. Some people occupy themselves with small things and most with their own betterment
While some think about big issues, world peace, the universe, species of the planet, whatever they like.
He does not need to think about anything else. Is that how everything is supposed to be? But it seems too bloody simple.
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Everyday he learns something new from this world, and the more he learns the less amusing the things that he learnt before become. New discoveries make other existing things seem normal and insignificant, unlike they were before. So as an individual if one finds less things to occupy his mind, he starts to prove things like ''The earth is a pyramid''.. . lol :-D--

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Change

2007-06-04T17:33:00.000-07:00

Change is good and change is bad.
I cannot adjust to change easily, in me or in people around me or in other things.
Voluntary change is what I think should happen gradually.
I feel that every step in any direction towards something
Is one step in the opposite / or some direction away from something else.
And I don't think it is possible to find out all the reactions of change.
It is good to maintain a balance of the things around at least as far as possible.
I am changing and I don't like everything -
There are somethings that I might be losing because of the changes
And have to lose them for the changes but I want to keep them and so I am trying

Perdition

2007-01-09T01:19:00.000-08:00

A state of final spiritual ruin, loss of the soul, damnation.
The future state of the wicked.
Utter destruction or ruin.
............- these were the dictionary meanings
I think it means more than all this. Is there some place called Hell?

I feel like I am becoming one of those people who believe that
This world does not deserve this earth

Influence limits perspective

2007-01-03T01:06:00.001-08:00

You read books, articles , blogs and experience a lot of things and then based on that you have a better judgment about everything
Way to go , way to live. But as you occupy yourself with all your activities and interests you never have the time to think about something else.
Something outside the box. In fact you might never, unless you get triggered by and event that would make you think.

Mans ability to spend some time thinking about his purpose and discover inner reasoning is lost amidst all he does
The best minds are working on what they have discovered and the process of development is what they are concerned about not wanting to know any further
A million years ago there was less discovery and more to think about, 500 years ago there was discovery but also time to think about more
Today there is so much to think about what has been discovered, there's hardly anytime to think about discovering any more.

Well, anyway, I have not witnessed any progress in discovery among humans within themselves
It's always been about what's around and how to use what's around for them to survive.
But I have the feeling that it might be the ultimate truth and it could be ugly and beautiful at the same time

What you learn has to be through people or places or issues , or events , or facts that can bee seen heard and have proof- or written -
But what if you stumble upon something outside all this, you go through something you feel people rarely go through , it changes your perspective.
You become a different being, usually termed as "Case of mental illness" by everyone around you .. .. .. ... . .

You might say thinking now seems pointless as everyone will know what it is in the end anyway-
I have never read books or have experienced enough to know the answers to the questions others might know.
Reading what I have written might make you feel I am lost in the dark trying to find something when there is just space and nothing around me
But I'm walking, there's ground beneath my feet and I feel that.

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Is it a sickness or something else?-- (MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF SOMETHING COMMON)

2007-01-02T21:01:00.000-08:00

Have you ever thought so much about some thing and analyzed it so deeply
That by thinking and coming across the various conclusions
An idea slips into your mind that makes you think even more and so, on and on
Till it starts taking a toll on you physically and you feel so horrible inside

Your hair starts tingling at the back of your neck, your fingers tremble
You sweat in an A/c room
You cant see clearly, you feel as if your head is about to explode and you might faint

But this should only happen in situations when you think you did something wrong
Or your judgment was wrong and you start realizing somethings but you can't believe it . You get to know things you never wanted to know

After all thought, something still remains incomplete

Probably I'm just a sick or a confused person who is confusing himself even more
Like everyone says - probably psych or mad

But there has to be a reason to this behavior--
I cannot afford a psychiatrist - so I have a blog
That's one sign of me being mad, 'coz I would never do such a thing

It could also be simple - like my friends say
I am a person who thinks too much and has not matured like the people around me
And I'm really a fool who's driving himself mad for no reason
When he can just enjoy and have fun

But it also could be that others don't want to think
Or are such cowards or dishonest and cannot show their real self to anyone
Not even themselves
They are afraid they will not be liked, They need to keep a personality to cover themselves than discuss things that will make them sound like a maniac
Or they want to conform. They don't want to get confused
"What they have learnt is what is right and that's it "

Maybe they don't want to think- 'coz they dread
"What they'll start to realize is what they never wanted to"
It cold be painful and hurting. They cannot stand the pressure.
Ignorance is bliss

They say ' If everyone around is like that, then be like that'
If you are like an open book, if you are honest
And if you wear your life on your sleeve you eat shit and die or maybe even worse

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